i long to write.
i long to write about how i just got back from a night out at chinese laundry, this club in sydney which i went to with some friends from shalom college, and it was brilliant. the minute you walk in through the front door, you are overwhelmed by the vibe and the energy emitting from the atmosphere, and the bass from the music just flows right through you. not to mention that i was the only asian guy there, which is always a good thing since it assists in enhancing the overseas experience thing. there's no point going to another country only to hang out with other asians, you go overseas to absorb as much that the journey has to offer, and you want to learn other cultures and share experiences with people of a different descendence. i want to share with you how forlorn the night seemed to end up with us having to wait 20 mins for a taxi but only to meet the rest of my friends along george street and eventually catching up over kebabs, making the night that much more enjoyable.
i want to tell you about how surprisingly fulfilling a night out at a local australian pub in bondi can be, despite being the most dingy and dodgy place that i've ever been to during my time in sydney. i was the only asian guy there too, and no one seemed to care, they were only interested in having a good time. i dig that. i long to write about how i ended up watching the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind at gwyn's place last night along with ruth and angus, and how emotional that show always seems to make me. it is a movie with an innate ability to peel away whatever protective shield i seem to wield around my heart and then the dam just starts to flow. you can relate so much to the characters in the show... haven't you been in a position where you wanted to erase someone from your mind because the hurt is just too unbearable? on the other hand, would you erase them from your memories, given how you would forget all the good times you shared together in the process? it's basically a story of the most basic lesson in life, you have to take the bad with the good, and just try your best to roll with the punches.
i long to write about how much there is to say in my head, just bursting desperately for some form of expression. i want to share my fears, my needs, my joys, without censorship. i want to write about how i have responded to different situations in my life, about how they have seemed to make my eyes cry a million tears, about how they have seemed to cause me to laugh along incurably with the tears.. and then maybe someway, somehow, by reading my humble account of my life's experiences, you can identify with them and begin to cry or laugh with me.
like i said... i long to write.
